The Adventures of the Little Indian Girl

This week seems to have followed the theme on mothers. We received news that my maternal grandmother passed away a few hours ago. Her health had really degenerated the last few months. In a way this is the end of her misery. She was such an active lady and it must have been so tough for her to not even be able to carry a conversation over the phone.

A long time ago before the world of tags  I had written about her. I don't feel like writing. But yesterday evening, I saw her face in mother's and ajji (kannada for grandmom) just smiled at me and I could see the love just radiating through. My mom looks like grandpa. So that was odd I thought then... I had nearly blurted out then itself that she looked just like mom.

Dad called to share the news with mom. For quite some time I was hoping/thinking it's some sick kind of joke. But why would dad out of all the people do something like that. Mom is showing a strong face, but I can't imagine what she is going through.

She has decided not to fly back. She is also not getting any younger for her to fly there and back again later. Plus, by the time she lands the funeral and stuff would be over.

My sis also emailed me and asked me how she is doing. I think she is fine. Her biggest concern now is the light accumulation of dust on the picture frames. Apparently we should be dusting everyday! So, that is what she will be doing henceforth. Did I mention my mom is a perfectionist? 

Mothers are so loving, caring, bring so much comfort and at the same time they can take over your life and drive you mad. Whatever happened to the dialogue you heard all through high school years and other times, "you can do as you wish when you have a place of your own. But as long as you are under our roof you follow these rules?" And albeit at times grudgingly, I followed whatever they asked. Do they conveniently forget that dialogue and come by and take over the whole place making you feel like a little kid again and a guest in your own home?! 

At the same time, one smile from her and I just can't imagine how I could manage without her here. The love and care she pours into everything she does. And so for the next few months, I surrender.