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Now I haven't lost my mind... maybe. I'm looking at the weather for tomorrow and it says rain and then snow. Excuse me? It's been under 30 for nearly 2 weeks. Let's leave it there. I DO NOT WANT RAIN and then snow. holy shit the ice is thick enough. (the poor grounds keepers were watching me trying to get across the ice floe apologizing. We can't get it off!) Snow, go for it. Rain first, go fuck yourself Mother Nature. No one wants that.

Speaking of DNW, my students some day. So I've been preparing to flip my lab to mondays. We talked about it in Dec. We talked about it the first two weeks. Today is the first day we did it (snowed out last monday) and one of the students goes 'i have class in that time period. OMFG. WHY did you wait until now to tell me? I'm speaking with the chair/dean because in the original position upwards of half the class will miss every lab. If I move it only 1 misses, the one who didn't tell me about this class. I'm gonna go out and sleep on the ice.

I'm at the point in my reading journey where I'm not liking a book but all my friends love it and now I feel pressured.

I made a real milk hot chocolate. At least this didn't have the same weird taste to me BUT my lactose pills did nothing. Someone is playing cat's cradle with my stomach. Way to fail me



it's music monday 30 weeks of music. This week's prompt is 12 A song from the 90s. Share your faves too.

I'm breaking this into two under here, the rock-pop ones and the country )





here's the whole prompt list

it's under here )


And I have decided to do a new declutter project but rather than talk about what I'm tossing, my plan is to pick ONE thing a day to red up. Some things will get tossed. Others will be put away correctly. Etc.

today - cleared up the top of the dresser. Found many earrings that had been missing. My mother mentioned a friend of hers in NC has an abused women's shelter that takes jewelry and clothing to get these women back on their feet, give them something to wear to job interviews etc. I wonder if I have something like that hear because I need to dump half of these earrings and I don't want to toss them in the trash

Il Mondo Della Luna, 1959

Jan. 21st, 2026 11:50 pm
[personal profile] dandylover1
(Catchup - 2 February 2026)
Hello, Dear Readers. Today, I have another opera review for you. This one is very different, because it was written before bel canto! It was quite an adventure, but a great one.

Il Mondo Della Luna, 1959 )

Some Lovely Haydn

Jan. 20th, 2026 09:56 pm
[personal profile] dandylover1
(Catchup - 2 February 2026)
Hello, Dear Readers. Today, I have another musical entry for you. However, since its so short, I am combining the ones from the 19th and the 20th.

thoughts on Haydn: Symphony No. 101 'The Clock', and Hob I:63 - 2nd Version - Symphony No. 63 in C major, La Roxelane )

The Friday Five for January

Jan. 31st, 2026 09:11 pm
[personal profile] dandylover1
(Catchup - 2 February 2026)
Hello, Dear readers. It's time, yet again, for another monthly Friday Five! All of these can be found at [community profile] thefridayfive. I had to remap the apostrophe key on this keyboard, until I wait for the new one to arrive, so I may have typed the correct key which does nothing. If so, I apologise.

The Friday Five for 2 January 2026
These questions were written by [livejournal.com profile] tabular_rasa.

1. Do you mostly drink tap, filtered, or bottled water?
Filtered. I love Water Chef! It has all the correct certifications. But I also have bottled water from Aldi.

2. Is it safe/recommended to drink tap water where you live? If not, why?
They say it's okay, but the EWG's readings would give you nightmares, and probably cancer just looking at them!

3. What does the tap water taste/smell like where you live?
Bad. Most people may not notice it, but I certainly do. You would have to pay me in the six figures to drink it, and even then, only in a very small amount.

4. Do you collect rainwater? If so, what do you use it for?
No.

5. Do you/have you ever had restrictions on water use where you live? What did you have to change about your lifestyle?
Weve been told to boil wter, which didnt affect me, since I cook and drink with filtered water. But we have also been told not to shower, and that definitely did affect me. I have often wondered how I would even know about such things, since I obviously can't see brown water and dont watch the news. As it is now, Mom tells me such things. Fortunately, none of this has ever lasted more than two days at the most.

The Friday Five for 9 January 2026
These questions were written by [livejournal.com profile] losseloth.

1. Do you have a favourite cause that you support?
I am not usually one for causes, advocacy, etc. But I have always felt strongly about homosexual rights, even before I knew about my parents. I dont know why. That and animals. So I always post things supporting both, be it gay pride events or posts from animal shelters asking for donations, etc.

2. If so, how do you support it?
Whenever I find a brand that is kind to the gay community, I either buy from them or promote them. (Try Barefoot wine. Its delicious.) I also never donate to the Salvation Army. As for animals, I post as much as I can to get them adopted, to encourage people to adopt instead of shopping if they're thinking of adding one to their family, etc.

3. Have you been an active member of an organization (attending meetings, volunteering, etc)?
No.

4. Have you ever led any group?
No, other than subreddits, Facebook groups, etc. But none were about any causes.

5. If so, how was your experience with it?
Being an administrator is interesting. I had more problems on Facebook than on Reddit, but most were related to people not reading the aims of the group i.e. posting things about Latin (Spanish) music in a group that was about the Latin (ancient Roman) language.

The Friday Five for 16 January 2026
These questions were written by [livejournal.com profile] frieliegh.

1. If you could change one life-changing event in the life of someone important to you, would you?
Yes, but I would need a time machine for that. I would make it so that Beau Brummell never contracted syphilis, or if I couldn't prevent it, I would try to come early enough that I could cure it with very little affect on him.

2. Which do you think is easier to do, being friends for many years, or being life partners for many years?
It really depends on the people in question. To me, if your life partner isn't your best friend, you're doing it wrong. So looking at it from that angle, I suppose I would say friends.

3. Have you ever walked away from someone you considered a friend?
Yes, but he mistreated me, and I don't tolerate that from anyone. I gave him at least three chances to change, but he didn't. Note, this was not any sort of abuse. I just didn't like how he treated me.

4. (grammar corrected) If you had to choose between telling the truth and hurting a friend or lying and making him happy, which would you choose?
Under almost all circumstances, I would tell the truth. The only time I wouldn't is if someone were literally dying and this would help him rest in peace, unless, of course, he always preferred honesty. But I am not a liar by nature, and I always say"if you dont want the truth, don't ask me".

5. Which would you rather hear--the truth which will hurt, or the comforting lie?
The truth. I can work with truth, however painful it may be. I can't work with lies, and I refuse to keep liars in my life.

The Friday Five for 23 January 2026: Hair
These questions were written by [livejournal.com profile] destined_dreams.

1. What type of hair do you have? (Thin, Normal, Thick, Frizzy, etc.)
I guess normal (I've never seen other people's hair), but its very thick, especially on the top. It's also very annoying for that reason, plus the cowlics!

2. What color is your hair currently?
Mom calls it a mousy brown, but there are also streaks of grey through it.

3. What colors have you dyed/highlighted your hair?
When I was younger, I allowed Mom to use herbal highlights to turn it blond so she would stop bothering me about it. Now, fortunately, she's given up on it.

4. If you could dye your hair any color, what would it be?
I don't believe in dying hair. But if I did, it would be something sensible and natural in appearance.

5. What is your hair's length?
Its very short, definitely well above my shoulders. Right now, though it's longer than I would like, particularly on the top. I haven't had it cut yet due to the horrible weather. (Note. This is from 2 February.)

The Friday Five for 30 January 2026
These questions were suggested by [livejournal.com profile] twirlandswirl.

How many times a day do you . . .

1. Brush your teeth?
Once.

2. Shower?
Usually, once.

3. Check your E-mail?
Once, if that.

4. Check LJ? (or DW?)
I wish I did this once a day, but sadly, I don't.

5. Eat?
Usually, twice.

AO3 Tag Bingo (January 2026)

Feb. 2nd, 2026 04:30 pm
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[personal profile] hafnia
AO3 added additional "No Fandom" tags!

To celebrate this (and because one of them in particular made me laugh and go, "of course that's a thing", I'm amusing myself by playing Tag Bingo, and if that sounds like fun to you, READ ON.

beneath a jump to be considerate <3 )

A Little Update

Feb. 1st, 2026 11:30 pm
[personal profile] dandylover1
Hello, Dear Readers, happy first of the month. I haven't written much aside from musical entries because not much has happened lately. The weather is still horribly cold, even for Mom, who claims not to mind the cold. Joanie is another matter. She says she is completely fine and loves her new job as a crossing guard, because she is able to stay outside. As for me, I hated being downstairs so much due to the cold that I am now sleeping in another room on the middle floor. It was actually my bedroom as a child, and then, it became Grandma's. When she died, it basically became a bit of a storage room. Anyway, all of my things are still downstairs, because this room is tiny, but it has a radiator in t, so at least it's warm. But I am also reminded of why I don't like being on this floor. Aside from having no privacy, unless I close the doors to this room, I can also hear everything that my parents are doing, which is annoying and distracting at ties. I really am a loner and don't like living with people. A partner would be the exception, of course. i can't wait until all of this is straightened out soon and I get my own place back.

Of course, I shorted out yet another of my CUQI Mini Keyboards with my hyperhydrosis, so now, it is only partly functional, with few keys having to be remapped. I still have my ProtoArc XK04, but it is far better suited to phones than to Windows because it is natively missing some essential keys, such as f1 through f12. Plus, I had to reverse the left alt and Windows and add an Applications key. They claim it is able to work with Windows, but why they would eliminate those keys and not have a proper way to access them, instead choosing media keys, is beyond me.

BUT enough negativity. I have been watching various documentaries about all sorts of different things, from my usual ones about nature, to things about ancient Egypt, Rome, and even the lives of people in an African country today. I can't understand how or why religion and superstition still thrive in the twenty-first century, when science has come such a long way, but at least, in third-world countries with very little education, it makes a bit more sense. My thoughts on religion are that it exists first, to explain the natural world when science is lacking, and secondly, to act as a control on the people to gain one thing or another, be it money, power, respect, a feeling of superiority, etc. in many cases.

In other news, I finally made the full switch from Android to IOS. I decided that I didn't really need to wait for my parents to go to have the sim card changed in my phone after all (Joanie was having trouble putting it into my iPhone), so I switched to an e-sim and within minutes, my new iPhone Se2022 was connected to Mint Mobile. It feels wonderful not to have to worry about keeping two phones charged, etc. Now, I can just carry one phone and my Orbit Writer keyboard and be done with it.

Talking meme month: day 1

Feb. 1st, 2026 09:18 pm
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(For all the questions, or to submit one of your own, the post is here ♥ )

What are you most looking forward to this month?

Excellent question, ha.

I'll punt on this a little bit, because the actual answer (that I'm still recovering from last year) is not very interesting, and will say —

I'm trying to make a sourdough starter. "Trying" being the key word here. It's my hope that by the end of the month, I will have managed to successfully bake a loaf of sourdough bread. We'll see how it goes? I'm using the King Arthur sourdough guide, since most of their recipes work for me. I stopped by the co-op today to get whole-wheat flour from their bulk bins (local! it's hard red wheat grown in Oregon and they sell it for $0.99/lb, which is *wild* to me!), and this afternoon, I measured out flour and water and threw them in a sourdough-safe container in my kitchen, where they are now quietly sitting together in the oven, because it's the warmest place in the house. Ha.

Tomorrow will be the first discard, and you're supposed to see activity within 48 hours, so. Hopefully I will? And it'll go well? Shall see! ♥

February's Bingo

Feb. 2nd, 2026 12:07 am
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[personal profile] cornerofmadness
for [community profile] allbingo's valentine's fest

Separation & reunion Helplessness Ethical Sluts First kiss Sensory Deprivation
Love Without Limits Hate sex Body Worship Chocolates Our Song
Biting / Sucking Negative Self-Talk FREE SPACE Balcony scene Sarcasm
Self-Sabotage Sending flowers Roaring Twenties Refusing to Be Wrong Manipulating People
Ménage à trois Leather / Latex Toxic Relationships Humping on the couch Masturbation

Writerly Ways

Feb. 1st, 2026 10:35 pm
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My imbolc was...frustrating. Before I launch into my writerly ways, let me tell you my tale of woe because what would a day be if something annoying didn't happen. I opened my email to find

1. my hotel was canceled
2. that gown I paid for, the email can't be delivered.


So 1. the hotel. It's for the loveland frogman festival. It's the hotel they use for their guests and festival goers (the conference center is a golf club without a hotel) I call them to find out WHY they canceled. me. She goes , 'oh, the state shut us down.' and hung up on me. I'm wow. how BAD do you have to be for the state said no more. A friend suggested that maybe it was because of ICE because didn't Hilton do that it in Minneapolis. Yes but that doesn't seem to be the case here. Now I'm looking for a new hotel AND wondering will the festival get canceled?!?

2. When recollection clothing was on Etsy I bought a beautiful walking dress for my steampunk and in June I bought one for my steampunk/cosplaying Rosie. She's no longer on etsy. It was meant to be delivered in August. it took a couple emails to get a response that she was struggling to get the cloth but she was on it. I've emailed every month since. No response. Now I can't even get an email through. Either she pulled up stakes entirely OR she blocked me. I need to go check the web page to see what's going on but I'm betting that's 200$ I'm never seeing back.


So writerly ways. I have nothing much to actually say, ha. BUT I stumbled onto an offer that was too short of a turn around to share it and it was all about taking a chance (literally it was a random lottery) to get pages of your novel read by a pro editor (like 3 pages) and they asked what turned out to be a shockingly hard question that I thought I'd pose to all of you.

What do YOU struggle with in your novel?

Part of me wanted to say description, ever since a particularly bad writers' group but then I thought eh, that sounds not really like I know what I'm doing. My real problem is my characters pull the story down rabbit holes I'm not sure it should be going through and evil little dog helped me put it in a more coherent way, enough so that one of the editors popped in with an answer (something other than buy my book, which there was a regrettable amount of that) He called it shiny object syndrome which fair. I've called it that myself not knowing it's the right term.

I get distracted by the newest shiny idea outside of the novel and within. It's something I need to work on. How about you?



Open Calls


Views From The Overlook I've shared this before. My story is ready (another beta read wouldn't be bad) I'm sharing this again because they have made a lot of changes to the open call (making it more fair honestly) and the pay is up to 2K for the story. I'm still taking my slim to none chance.

After the Hurt This one is weird. It wants stories that are 'after the whump' the weird part is they have categories from micro fic to novelettes but the PAY doesn't change, just ten dollars or a paperback of the anthology. Given that I wouldn't give them more than flash fic

When the Base Goes Dark: Holding the Line at Home Original horror fiction written exclusively by current or former military dependents

Eye to the Telescope Theme: Paying Tribute

Vampires Anthology Spine-tingling Short Stories of Vampirism in All Its Forms. this is one I'm writing frantically for but it just occurred to me I DO have steampunk vampire story (but it might be too short).

Untitled Suburban Gothic Anthology Suburban Gothic by Canadian authors

THE PING ANTHOLOGY

35 Magazines Accepting Literary Fiction



From around the web

Battling “Shiny Object Syndrome” as a Writer: How I’m Staying Focused on My Novella this was the advice I was given

Short, Sharp, and Hungry: What a Lifetime of Novels Taught Me About Writing Short Horror

Radical Immersion: Becoming Your Character

How to Sneak Clues Past Your Readers and Keep Them Guessing

Change Requires an Engaged Community

The Author's Guide to Instagram.

Five Top Tips To Smash Your Writing Goals

The Timely Sentence



One I think a lot of us should listen to



also interesting




From Betty

Five Ways Authors Sabotage Their Story’s Tension

How Big Should Character Problems Be?

What Actually Scares Me About AI

Three Ways to Develop Characters in Fiction


How to Craft Accurate Fight Scenes - Part 2

This Book Brought to You By

Coping Mechanism Thesaurus Entry: Negative Self-Talk

HOW TO WRITE AN 'I HAVE A BOOK COMING' EMAIL

Why Writers Should Stretch: Simple Ways to Reduce Pain and Stay Healthy at Your Desk

Why Writers Need Good Friends: 5 Powerful Reasons Connection Fuels Creativity and Calling

Dipping the Quill Deeper: Honoring Elders by Preserving Their Stories and Legacy

6 Reasons Writing for Change Requires an Engaged Community

I Meet the Villain Last

Writing Without Trying to Manage the Reader

An ancient desire fulfilled!

Feb. 1st, 2026 02:54 pm
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[personal profile] oracne
I am learning to knit! I am very proud of my casting on, and am working on the tension while actually knitting. Today, I did multiple rows for the first time; I got up to row four before I tangled something too badly to continue and started over.

I am currently using a giant pair of kids' plastic needles that C. had from a kit she did last year, and some neon purple acrylic yarn. I also have a nice pair of circular needles that [personal profile] drinkingcocoa helped me to pick out at our local yarn store; I started with those, but am now seeing how a longer row works.

I have no idea how long it will take for me to knit something that I'd actually wear, but the point for me is the process. It requires some concentration plus being in the moment, and will be a good thing to do while waiting for things or, potentially, getting back into listening to audioplays and the like. Plus, it's more mobile than doing a puzzle.

My many friends who knit are so excited..

drive-by updates, ofc.

Jan. 31st, 2026 11:32 pm
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[personal profile] hafnia
1). The first round of the remix fics for [community profile] seasonalremix is open to read now. I have a story in there; it's probably, uh, obvious if you know what I am into.

We had seven people sign up in total (including me, obvs). Feels pretty good, honestly, considering that there was basically zero advertising and at one point I was afraid that it was going to be, uh, zero signups! I WILL TAKE IT ♥

2). I'm not going to shout it from the rooftops or anything, but per the word counter I've been filling in for [community profile] getyourwordsout, I'm at 101k written in 2026 (daily average of 3288 through the month of January). Is it good? Is it usable? WHO KNOWS. The important part is that I have been managing to keep a steady pace writing fiction, so that's rather nice. ♥ One of my friends asked if I was counting e.g. Dreamwidth posts for that, or outlining, writing for tabletop modules, etc, and the answer was no — that 100k+ is all written fiction. So that feels doubly-nice, no asking "should I count this" (since the guidelines are flexible and it's up to you), just a general, "I have in fact managed to keep chipping away at this and creating a habit has worked for me".

3). I am ending January having submitted two short stories for publication. Are they likely to be published? No. Am I okay with this? Yes. I realized that one of the things that has sort of, mm — been on my mind has been this realization that I'm okay with rejection. Does it suck? Yes. But you know what sucks more? NEVER HEARING BACK. At least a "no" is an answer! So hey, if I get rejected, I get to go buy myself fancy tea or something else small as a, "AT LEAST YOU HEARD BACK" gift to myself, and that's good enough.

Neither is anything "professional" (if I get anything into one of the magazines you have Definitely Heard Of, I will shout it from the fucking rooftops), but everyone has to start somewhere, and these were open calls to submissions that I had pieces that worked for — so it was more "edit this and submit it" than it was "write something completely new". ♥

4). Starting tomorrow, I'll be answering the talking month meme prompts from this post. If you have anything you want to ask me, now's a good time to let me know so I can get it slotted in — there's still a handful of dates unaccounted for :D

5). Yesterday was Maximo's birthday — he's 38 now, something he has dolefully reminded me of at multiple points (I have been 38 since November :P ). Ended up watching Godzilla Minus One the night before birthday (which we enjoyed a lot, actually, it was silly and tropey but surprisingly good for what it was, and with a deeper message re: the government and international relations of post-war Japan than I was expecting), then last night I made us a fancy dinner and we rewatched Your Name. because he has been gunning for us to rewatch it for a bit (it is still, ofc, excellent).

I teased him tonight that I wanted to watch something in English, so we went for the Seven Dials adaptation that's on Netflix right now. It is Peak Period Silliness, so, you know. If you're into that sort of thing, it's fun.


I think that's most of it? Therapy Monday; have some specific stuff I actually want to talk about (HORRORS), but, yeah. Mostly it's that seasonal depression is kicking my ass and like, "please give me permission to keep focusing on HEALING and NOT BEING MISERABLE over immediately finding full-time employment".

But yeah. We'll see.

Can someone explain this to me

Jan. 31st, 2026 11:16 pm
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[personal profile] cornerofmadness
Don't get me wrong, I don't care what people wear or try to police it. On the other hand I did my time working in an ER and I don't get this trend of men wearing basketball shorts and short sleeves, no coat, in the dead of winter. It was 19 today and as I'm trying to park at Kroger two men, a few minutes apart come out dressed like this and I used to see this in teens but one guy was 30-40 and the other 50+ For that matter last week I told my students I guess I don't have to tell you no flipflops/slippers in our lab (it's a safety issue) since it's so cold but thursday I had to say okay I guess I DO have to say it because what did I see walking down the hall but a girl in backless flipflop styles slippers. I'm like are you actually serious? You're going to bust your skull open when you fall on the ice but okay you do you

I feel like a crotchety old woman.

Oh wait....

I did get to Jackson. I got to Tractor Supply, to Kroger, to the library and to the coffee shop (had to embed myself in an ice floe for that). Speaking of which I did decide I can't safely do the chocolate walk next Thursday. There's too much ice to do it in the dark. I will die. And I'd have been alone in the cold. two friends didn't want to and I would rather never go anywhere with L again and TH...he couldn't manage this walk. Ah well. I didn't go last year either for pretty much the same reason. This leg, the gift that keeps on giving.


I did start a vampire story I've been wanting to write but I need to keep moving because the deadline (I found yesterday) is in 2 weeks.



Science Saturday


Female Doctors May Offer Better Patient Outcomes, Especially To Women I've always said this. Been accused of bias (well duh) but this is not a small study.



South Carolina's measles outbreak nears 790 cases — making it the biggest in decades Pointing this out to my class...which by the way I'm not supposed to do according to OH gov. God I hope we end up with a dem governor this year


New triple-drug treatment stops pancreatic cancer in its tracks, a mouse study finds

Wistman’s Wood: An Ancient Temperate Rainforest That Feels Like A Tolkien Fantasy


Imposter Syndrome Is Common In Perfectionists – But Not If They're Also Narcissistic some how this feel obvious

140 in 1400 List

Feb. 1st, 2026 02:54 am
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[personal profile] zhelana
Finished This Month
Build the bookshelf
Build the wardrobe
Build the dresser
Unpack silver suitcase


Progress This Month

Exercise every day in 2026
Weight lift every day of 2026
Brush teeth 360 times in 2026
Shower 2x weekly 2026
Deodorant daily 2026
Climb stairs weekly 2026
Art Every Day 2026
Finish 2025 photoshopping
Write in Spanish every day of 2026
Buy painting supplies
Finish my memoirs
Write 300k words in 2026
Write weekly 2026
Work through a book of writing exercises
Read 50 books 2026
Read 12 new fiction titles 2026
Read at least 2 pages a day 2026
Clean 2 minutes per weekday 2026
Clean 10 minutes per week 2026
Unpack green suitcase
Watch a video in Spanish every week 2026
Watch 200 educational videos 2026
Read 3 science textbooks
Read 3 social science textbooks
Read 3 history textbooks
Work through 3 math textbooks
Read 12 new nonfiction titles 2026
Go to temple 12 times in 2026
Go to 9 SCA meetings 2026

Breast update

Feb. 1st, 2026 10:01 am
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not much in the way of medical TMI this time, but still, content note for cancer treatment details.

  • Healing (external) looking good. The scar is as long as my little finger, and quite dark (almost like a lightly faded black permanent marker). It is no longer raised or itchy. Little bit red either side, possibly because it is difficult to get the breast in a position to see the scar, and it means I was pulling on the skin. I continue treating with the scar therapy gel, in hopes that that decreases my chance of it going stiff (I have a history of cheloid scarring on my knee, which the doctor that did the surgical tidy up of the scar attributed to issues with the original stitching / treatment)
  • Internally I'm assuming there is still a bit of healing to go because there is infrequent discomfort, mostly if I end up in an odd position and the breast is not supported. Also noticeable last night while chopping veggies, so I may need to look at what is wrong with my posture there.
  • I'm still wearing the surgical recovery bras; I've now moved to not using them at night because my skin was getting quite irritated under the band. Of the four I started with, I have misplaced the good one, and one is a size too large. Fortunately, I have found an old sports bra which is appropriately soft and has no underwire to wear while the two are in the wash. A couple of times I have tried wearing one of my usual, which I think of as soft, but have underwire; in each case the surgical area has become noticeably sore. I'll keep doing that every few weeks until it isn't an issue, then transition back to my usual bras. I have decided against going to the specialist bra shop to get more, mostly because I don't have the necessary time + energy.
  • radiation: appointment one with the radiologist, who was all 'this is your choice, ...' and then gave info that summed up approximately to 'given your age/situation, I'd do it anyway'. Also implied, I think, was the fact that there were cancerous cells further from the cancer site ('the margins'), necessitating the second surgery; my take from that is that it was moving quickly. Thus I am skipping over the expensive test and going straight to radiation. I think if the cancer site had been elsewhere in the body, it might be different, although I did not get a feel for which way the likelihood went. But being in the breast duct, there is a lot of potential for cancer cells to have moved a long way and be starting up again. Thus, radiation of the whole breast.
  • Appointment two with the radiologist is Monday. They can treat me at the local public hospital (literally next door to the private one I had the first surgery at). It will be three weeks, multiple sessions. Likely noticeable side-effects are sun-burn like sensation and some other minor discomfort. Slight change in the breast tissue (ongoing) may occur, so it might feel different to the other, but as it already does, eh. And there is a slight chance that a small bit of the lungs behind will be damaged, but in a way that I am not likely to perceive.

Postcard of the Day

Jan. 31st, 2026 12:25 pm
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[personal profile] fflo



The back doesn't talk about the snow and seems like part of a longer letter-on-postcards, but I put it for you anyway back here. )

Medical stuff

Jan. 30th, 2026 09:16 pm
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As I said, I canceled school today and went down to the library to get books/return same, cashed in my Mexican restaurant freebie (another free soda, luckily it could be tea) and had my mammogram. The tech was the first grad from the program back in 2003 and I mentioned teaching them and she gave me things to think about that I hadn't. Like how could I forget they do enemas of barium? Or that I personally have used them IN surgery? I want them to know it's more than taking x-rays and this is WHY they need to know anatomy.

My psychiatry visit was virtual and I guess I'll be needing a new one. I like her and she swears she's staying with the hospital system but her husband had to relocate to FL and all our visits have to be virtual. Yeah like she's really going to stay. Ah well

here are a couple of stories I wrote to [community profile] threesentenceficathon

good old days, hazbin hotel )


James Bond He's Not, Hazbin Hotel )

Fannish 50 Friday Fandom Recs )

podcast friday

Jan. 30th, 2026 07:05 am
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 There's not really a choice this week even though a ton of great podcasts came out. It's going to be the ICHH/Cool People crossover episodes, "Everyone vs. Ice: On the Ground in Minnesota" (Part 1, Part 2). Margaret and James go to Minnesota to cover the occupation and the resistance. It's recorded before the brutal filmed murder of Alex Pretti (but after the brutal filmed murder of Renee Good) so it's a little bit more upbeat than we're all probably feeling. But it's very much worth your time. They spend a lot of the episodes discussing the community organizing, both visible and invisible, and how previous movements and the nature of the communities there led to a leaderful uprising against some of the most overt repression we've seen in the heart of empire in decades. And the show notes are full of things you can do to help if you're not able to go there.

I love winter

Jan. 29th, 2026 10:51 pm
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But this has too much ice for me. They warned us they couldn't get all the ice off. Let it be known NO ice/snow had been removed from the handicapped lot in and in front of the building was a literal rink. Another coworker was out and he walked in with me in case I couldn't do it (No issues0

The heaters are broken so the rooms are icy.

When I left at five all the feet had taken off the snow. It was a bare ice floe. I could barely walk to the car. I texted my coworker and said end your lab. You'll never make it in the dark. I called off for tomorrow. I missed Wednesday's lab might as well miss both.

That'll get me down to Gallipolis earlier so I can hit the library and lunch before my mammogram.

community recs just remember [community profile] halfamoon, the prompts are up, let's celebrate the ladies of fandom

and [community profile] fandomtrumpshate is up and running. Auction off your skills, help people. Fandom helping people is a great thing. I need to get my offer in.

Rocket made me laugh. He wanted out this morning. I opened the door. That -5 F (-21C) air hit him, he dropped to his belly, scuttled backwards and used his litter box. Yeah I thought so.

Back to work tomorrow

Jan. 28th, 2026 10:49 pm
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So I did try to get out of here. My hill is an ice floe but I got up there and the main highway is fine. BUT both counties are still on level 2 snow emergencies. Students are whining about it. I point to Canvas where I left them a message saying if you don't feel safe don't come. I'll put up a recording and you go suffer through that.

Rocket is being the best boy, finally using the damn litter box. Guess it got too cold to go pee outside. (He has only used that box a handful of times in 4 years. Today he walked in and did his business while I'm there like a good boy. He still wants out mind you but then he gets over it.

Another day of failing to clean (I have no energy today) but I made an eye appt, paid my membership dues for my pro organization, bought the work con and the hotel, contacted the steampunk con about their teacher discount, got the hotel for the loveland frogman festival in march (watch me get snowed into Loveland)

I did a bad thing. I took an Amazon prime trial membership because I HAD to spend the gift cards I got last work con and the items I wanted were over 50$ cheaper when I did that. Now to remember to cancel it in march.


What I Just Finished Reading:

A Curious Kind of Magic - I enjoyed this cozy mystery/fantasy thought the flawed main character did get on my nerves some times

Sugar and Vice - it was fairly fun

Sally Ride - I thought this was a YA book it was barely middle grade, more like 5-6th grade (I hate that my library system uses some reading level thing that means nothing to people who aren't parents. It's from the line that Chelsea Clinton started after the whole and yet she persisted dust up and it was nice for what it was.


What I am Currently Reading:

Zombie Day Care and something by Alison Bechdel about being superhuman. Oh joy an exercise memoir. Nearly done.

Luna Park history - it was an amusement park in Pittsburgh around 1910. Mostly interested because it feels like a place to set a story. I mean a lion escaped from it and ate a woman.

What I Plan to Read Next: La Grand Familia and some fantasy sapphic comic where chefs fight monsters...with giant forks. I know I know, the prompt is sapphic comic and this is the only one I haven't read yet at my library (I didn't like their other offerings enough to reread)

Reading Wednesday

Jan. 28th, 2026 07:26 am
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Just finished: Choices: An Anthology of Reproductive Horror, edited by Dianna Gunn. There are enough good stories in here that I'd recommend it, but the general problems—earnestness, literalness—persist throughout many of the stories. Ah, author-led anthologies.

Neosynthesis, edited by Bryan Chaffin. Speaking of! This almost had the opposite problem, which is a bunch of stories where I actually didn't know what was going on at all and couldn't orient myself. But it's rescued by quite a few standouts—Rohan O'Duill's Cold-verse short stories, especially "The Lore of Seven," "Nova Domus," which is about a spaceship becoming a person, and "The Nexpat," which is about life extension and virtual existence. 

I also flipped through the winter edition of "The Colored Lens," though I ended up just skipping ahead to J.S. Carroll's "Romeo Popinjay vs Iron Hans in the Beauty and the Beast Match You Won't Want To Miss," which was what I bought the anthology for, and which is 1000% worth the cover price. I want an entire novel of this short story. It's about an alternate universe where other hominids survive into more or less the present era, and feature in sideshows and pro-wrestling. Two heels—one human, one a wildman—end up forming a strange and touching friendship and rebel against their promoter. It's so so good.

Currently reading: I think next up is going to either be the rest of the aforementioned anthology or Changelog by Rich Larson, since that's what's sitting on the top of my TBR pile.

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